Out

He slided out with a crumbled back and strong shoulders. He looked annoyed and wondered around. some scratchy, small sounds of a crow came out of him.
Good God!
It was him!
It was the boss. From that moment when he was out. He showed with all his being that he was a boss. Contempt and strong.
Would you like to cut the string, the nurse asked.
I nodded and made the cut.
He was layed up to her chest.
I watched his firm and powerful, small back. His mouth searched for milk.
And I was sold. Sold to the boss.

The outcome

She breathed. Deep, deep. So deep that I never thought it was possible. She blew up two big hamster cheeks. Her teeth bit herself into her lips. The eyes tight and closed. Her hands got white when holding around the bed. Her whole body got tight. Her face got more and more red. it was blood red. No, blue red.
It was in that moment that a lightning stroke down on me. It lasted just a few seconds. But within those seconds it opened up a...a revealing. I could see. What was the genesis to everything.
A star had grown so big that it exploded. So strong that it made a black hole. Which sucked all life around. But then created something new. A new galaxy was slowly created, with billions of new stars. An eternal rotation between death and life.
Our earth is balancing on a sharp blade. Our star might just grow a little bit. And it will give us mortal heath and energy instead of the amount that is life supporting today. But because the earth is placed where it is placed, we get just a suitable amount of heath and energy. So far. Small and big meteors are passing by. If we get hit by a suitable big one, it will destroy the most on the planet. But because other planets are placed where they are placed, they protect us from the meteors. So far. The earth is like an egg. A thin shell on the outside. And a boiling magma which does everything to get out of the shell. Sometimes a small amount manages to get out. But mainly just a little bit. So far.
The life. It fights to have a place. And the genesis of the life. Is in this woman. The woman is the giving of life. And protector against all dangers. Against nuclear weapons and pollution. It`s just a finger on a button. And everything is deleted. The woman protects her child as best as she can. Against soldiers who rape and kill. She is working and struggling to make ends meet. While her husband is playing cards and drinking in a bar. She sacrifices everything. Gives an endless amount of love which life depends on to exist. And is rewarded with eternal pain. Numbers of menstruations, migraine, unease, violent men, pelvic pains, births with such a pain so deep that it gets into the deepest. And children who leave her at the end, without giving back any kind of thank you.
All this. Was what I saw in this blue red face. She had sacrificed so much. Struggled herself through a jungle. Pushed herself between narrow walls of negative powers. And still. She was capable of giving away an ocean of love and care. Which gave her such a tremendous force.
-I think something is happening now, the nurse said suddenly.

Harmageddon

It came in waves. Shaking. Roaring. The whole hospital was shaking. Then it calmed down a bit. She breathed. Fast. Then it built itself up again. Her hand grabbed my t-shirt. She shaked me up and down like a plastic ball. She roared.
-You gotta open up, a nurse said. She wanted to bend her legs more apart.
-It wont go, I said. She`s got pelvic pain.
It was impossible. Two forces in a wild battle. About going in or out.
-How was I, she asked. Inbetween the breathing pauses.
-It was better now, I said and tried to smile. -You`re good. The last one was very good.
She grinned.
-Come on, a nurse said. -Now push all you got.
She pinched her eyes together. Put the pressure on.
-Hnng-g-g-g-g-g.....
A glass of water on the nighttable started to vibrate. The bed was shaking a bit. The walls started to squeak. The asphalt outside at the parking lot made small cracks. Just beside our car. The wind blew up. Sailed over the three tops. Made the forest mumble with unease. The waves out in the ocean started to raise. The sun pushed out several, small explosions. The galaxy was spinning faster. The universe...pulled itself together...this might turn into a new, big bang...it could happen now....
-g-g-g-g-g-g-gAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhh.......
-I could see his head slightly, the nurse said. -But then he turned back inside again.
How could this get? It was impossible. Against such forces, even she had to give up.
-Now how was I, she asked and breathed.
-Yes, now it was very good, I said. -This time you were really good...
-You got to work harder, the nurse said. -Next time, you need to push with all you got. It`s no use with this small work. If not, we`ll keep on for many, many hours.
Then it built itself up again.
-Hm-hm-hm-hm-hm....
I moved myself downwards, to help keeping her knee up. I watched to see if I could see anything. But I couldn`t.
-Come on, the nurse said. -Now push.
-Come on, I thought. For Gods sake! Push!, Push....push...

On our way

-Oooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhh........
Her hand was hanging locked in the handle of the car. Her body was halfway lying, halfway sitting in the car seat.
The road was dark. The car was humming evenly. When she wasnt howling, it was only this humming we could hear.
Should I speed up, over the limit, to get faster to the hospital? Or could it be dangerous? What if we had a car crash? But what if the baby came out?
-Ooooooooooooooooooohhhhh......
I decided to keep the speed limit. I watched concentrated into the darkness. Black forest all around. Black forest and black darkness. No moose had to come in our way now. No open road robbers. No sneaking diseases. Nothing had to get in our way.
-Oooooooooooooohhhh....
Yes. I guess this had to be painful for her. No doubt about it. So painful that it was beyond the imagination of us men. Apparently. And now her howling came up more and more.
I turned up the the hospital. Damn! Where was I supposed to drive? I stopped the car. Fumbled with the cellular phone.
-What are you doing, she asked, inbetween her hyperventilation and moaning.
Where was that phone number? Then I found it, stuttered a question, searched for a door. Some white dressed nurses came out with a wheel bed. My wife got out of the car. Managed to crawl up in the bed. Then they were rolling into the corridor.

Time`s up

I was up again. Looked out of the morning window. Not much new to see.
My God! To be absent from work for one week had one large consequence; It was an ocean of unfinished work lying ahead of me. A large stack of paper laid on my desk. I turned the paper on the top. Tried to figure it out.
Many had been sick, they told me at work. And many still was. People was washing their hands constantly. I had an urge to scratch my nose. But managed to avoid it. What if, I thought.
A collegue told that a driver was robbed on the road, not far away. Someone was standing by the road, asking for help. When a car stopped, the driver was mugged. The city of cancer was creeping closer and closer.
I turned some more paper. I tried to make a plan. Putting up a time list. To make sure when the first was going to get finished. And then the second. This would take a hell of a time.
Then the cellular phone called.
It was her.
-You`ll have to come, she said.
-What, now? I asked.
-Yes, now! It`s time.
-But...-No but, she interrupted me. -Just come! Now!